I Was A Worrier
Worry was a big part of my life in my younger years. This was in the days before 24/7 news and social media, which now bring us non-stop things to worry about. I was just a natural worrier. I worried about missing out on fun, worried about the weather, and I especially worried about myself.
Am I good enough? Do people like me? Am I healthy? Oh man, did I worry a lot about my health. But I was a young, athletic teenager. There was no reason to worry about my health. But that didn’t stop me. I literally lost sleep over muscle pain ( which is normal when you play sports) and other things that are typical for a growing teen, often convincing myself that my time on earth was probably going to be pretty short. Sounds ridiculous, doesn’t it?
What I didn’t realize was that my worries were acting like a self-fulfilling prophecy. The mind body connection is strong and we know that worry and anxiety have all kinds of effects on the body. In other words, if unchecked, my worry about health issues would actually create health issues!
The Antidote
The worst thing a worrier can do is not share their worries (the second worst thing is to google them). Worry naturally leads to anxiety and fear, and those things grow in the darkness. Every once in a while, usually when I was sure I had only days to live, I would share my worries with someone. I remember one time finding my Mom in the kitchen and desperately sharing about a muscle spasm I’d been having every night that week. I was pretty confident that at age seventeen I had early onset Parkinson’s (I’m not joking). She asked me a couple of questions and kindly said, “Andrew, that sounds normal to me. You just need to drink more water.” Her words were more powerful than any medication and the poison of my own worry was almost immediately gone.
As I (mostly) outgrew my hypochondriac-type worries I realized how important relationships are as an antidote to my self-produced anxiety. Just sharing your worries and bringing them to the light allows you to see them differently and allows others to speak truth to your fears. But the real antidote to our worries is found in sharing them with the right person and that’s where our connection with God is vital.
The Power of Prayer
Don’t miss this! I know that even saying ‘the power of prayer’ sounds like some sort of Christian t-shirt or meme. I think that part of the problem is that prayer is often talked about as something we’ll do for others. “Oh, I’m sorry that you are going through that. I’ll pray for you.” And sometimes, we even ask for that for ourselves. “I’m going through a tough time, will you pray for me?” None of these are wrong, but if the people who need prayer aren’t praying themselves, they are missing out on the power of prayer!
The power of prayer is found when we walk into the kitchen with all that is on our heart, find God there, and share our worries with him. As we connect with him, we are reminded of his love for us and gain his perspective, peace, and even his wisdom. The power of prayer is found in how it connects us relationally with God, not in him snapping his fingers to instantly resolve whatever issue is causing our worry. If prayer were simply about changing external circumstances, we would never truly grow (mature) in our faith or get to know God’s heart and character. I didn’t know it at the time but my Mom was an example of the kind of relationship that God desired to have with me. Prayer is the time where God offers the antidote to all my worry and anxieties.
What’s the Big Worry?
I still worry. My worries are just more mature now and include things like world affairs, the economy, and my kids. As an adult my worries still grow in the darkness but they are also fed by the media (social and news) which bombards me with non-stop things to worry about. Unlike my self-diagnosis of Parkinsons, a lot of my worries are based on reality. There really are a lot of things to worry about!
I’m reminded of Jesus words where he specifically addressed worry saying, “…seek first his kingdom and his righteousness…”. How do we do that? Through regular, intimate, time with God in prayer. Whether it’s about health, provision, or politics, when we bring all of our concerns to God, he shows us his Kingdom and our fears dissolve. And then he shows us his righteousness and we know what to do. He doesn’t ignore the very real needs of our lives, but he removes the worry and then as Jesus said, all the other things we need will be provided to us as well (Matthew 6:33).
Last Thoughts…
It’s interesting that worry and prayer often share a similar physical posture. Can you tell who is worried and who is praying below? When we find ourselves burdened by our worries, we are only words away from turning that weight into an encounter with our Father God. If it’s important enough to worry about, it’s important enough to pray about.